i'm so depressed.............

Today is one of my most depressing days in my life as a mascian...

i am so depressed....... i can't find any solution to this big problem.............

so i tried to update this blog... i think i will not be able to do this frequently in my fourth year... actually i don't think that franklin will be as happier as burbank..... for me, burbank's the best!

this day will mark the end of my blooming life...... and will start the new chapter of old larraine's life..... the silent, shy, and pessimistic one........ i am very sure of this........ i can't help to cry......... please comfort me.........

in addition to this unfortunate events, i wasn't allowed by my parents to join burbank's reunion....... i tried to ask permission again, but then their reply made me insulted...... i was even scolded for my grades........ my parents haven't appreciated the kind of hardwork i've done to earn these grades........ hello, i am not perfect! i really do not know why they expect a lot from me! i really blame those teachers who don't grade their students well! i hate them! they made me insulted!........... tell me, what kind of life do i have?.................. please answer me.......

isn't it obvious that i'm starting to hate this life......... this life that gives me no assurance of the right way to go......... this life that bothers me everyday........ this life that makes me cry!!!

if only u can see me right now................ i'm filled with tears............. my eyes-- they're miserable!........i'm even starting to blame everyone for this......... i think, i'll be worse for the next days..........

help me please........ i need a couple of emotional advice........... i, the usual person who is known to advice and pray for other people's lives, is starting to get weak..... and weaker each day.......

i'm starting to change............. i'm afraid i may not be the larrs you've known in burbank........ the larrs that gets along well with different kinds of people, the larrs that plays tamaang tao, the larrs that laughs a lot............ (cries)

please pray for me. 

reminiscing the memories... i love u burbank.....

i am so depressed that i am actually trying to keep my tears away..................

i only have one more day to spend my life with Burbank............

i really can't post all my treasured memories with burbank 'cause whenever i try to i always fail........why?.............because i can't help to cry whenever i remember all the things that burbank thought me. because of burbank, my whole life changed. i knew how to mingle with other people well, to play magic, to act well (hehe... actually, i played the role of lavinia in ethika d movie), to avoid worrying about the tests, to go everywhere with my friends, to play "tamaang tao" with different cush balls (i forgot to tell in my previous posts that stephani's cush ball is now missing  ...the cush ball that only the burbank people have played... the cush ball that has been the mark of bumblebees! argghh... anyways...), to love..................and to do different unusual things. huhuhu... (please try to be silent to give due privacy to larraine's dramatic mode)

i feel that i am going to cry a lot tomorrow...........................

tomorrow....... march 31, 2006........... will be one of my most depressing moments........

goodbye burbank....................................

thank you for changing me in to a better person..................................... tnx a lot!

to express my deepest gratitude to burbank, i'll always pray for each and everyone's happiness. if u need my help, please feel free to approach me.........

huhuhu.............. tears already cover my face.............. i can't type for this entry anymore.............. the memories with my beloved section iii- burbank kills me..........

goodbye burbank. i'll never ever forget you. huhuhu........ (tears, tears, tears, tears...)

though it's hard to say goodbye...

I really have to before it's too late...

BYE BURBANK, I'LL NEVER FORGET YOU!

my life today...

for the past few days i have been very busy......... now, my tasks are getting less and i'm starting to give myself time to relax.......wheeww.....

i am really not feeling well today ,  maybe because of the sleepless nights... but this doesn't mean that i will already forget updating my blog. i tell u I'M REALLY ADDICTED TO THIS!

Waaaahhhhhhh..... 8 more school days to go and its already vacation! i am excited, but then i really feel so depressed about leaving my section. i feel that i should have enjoyed burbank's company before. i think i am starting to cry!   i don't wanna lose this section 'cause i really have experienced a lot of things from burbank. i have learned to enjoy many different things which i have not done before, i have learned to appreciate the simple deeds that my classmates are showing me and many more stuffs. huhuhu..... (tears falling from my eyes) [DRAMA MODE]

this is iii-burbank............... my most beloved section....................

enough for that, well i am so happy to see those who have already visited my blog being mystified about the 2 persons who inspires me which i have stated in my first entry. Hahahaha..... i really made such thing a secret so that everybody will keep on thinking about it (sometimes, it's fun to be mean )!

oh......... burbank......... i never thought i would love this section much............. i really find it hard to add more details cause it only makes me cry (huhuhu...) bye...

wait...... i forgot to tell you that i really thank those persons like my ------, -----, -------- and all those who really cared and prayed for me to pass a particular test in my life. may the Lord God shower you all with more blessing in life!